My name is Aloma, I am 55 yrs old, I have 2 daughters & my baby , my only son.. Joshua Sollomen, 27yrs old, lost his battle with life to sucuide , July 26, 2010
..I t will soon be a year but it to me seems like yesterday..not a day goes by that I don't think of his death at least once or twice aday. I maybe laughing one moment, then it hits me like a slap in the face no more memory making with my beloved son, It hurts & hurts alot! A huge piece of my heart is missing..I am broken into many pieces. I have many unanswered questions..I may never get answers to..but they are still there.
Next month will be a year & everytime I think of that anniversary I am afraid I will start crying & screaming & this time it won't stop!
At this time I am trying Very hard to remember how he lived...NOT the way he died..this a hard, hard battle! I will say I am better than I was almost a year ago..I no longer sit & cry every single moment of every single day..I may cry everyday but not every second of the day.
[u]I know I will never get over this , I may have days when I can handle it better, but Never will I forget that first moment I was told my baby boy was gone!
[u My youngest daughter for Christmas this past year bought me a journal, and I have found writting everyday in it, helps release some of the weight. My Husband, my 2 daughers, my sister, my friends , they all provide me with a great support system. I am blessed that I have them. I don't know if the day will Ever come that I don't shed a tear each day..but I will survive...for my girls ,my husband ,my family and most of all for my grandchildren!