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PostPosted: Mon Dec 03, 2007 1:04 pm 
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I think I've just been in denial up til now,but the closer it gets to Christmas and January 29,the more the reality of it all is starting to set in.
I was coming home from Wal-mart this morning and I I started to think about Michael and Christmas and the fact hes not going to be here this year and I just burst in to tears I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown at this moment. I've tried so long to be strong and I don't think I've ever accepted that Michael is truly gone, up until now it has felt more like hes just been away.But as I look at his empty room I realize hes not coming back.And I don't know if I can face this reality that has hit me like a ton of bricks.
I'm beginning to lose it.How can I make it thru the next two months? I just don't know.
I just know Michael is not coming home for Christmas and I just want to scream at the top of my lungs...I WANT MY SON BACK!!!!! I WANT MY SON BACK!!!! What do I do ?how do I live?

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Barbara

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Oh Barbara, I'm sorry, Please know I'll pray for you. I've been but I will even more. I know you miss Michael so much. You have every reason to feel the way you do. We'll help you get through this one minute at a time if that's all we can do.
Love, hugs and prayers, Cindy

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PostPosted: Mon Dec 03, 2007 1:40 pm 
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BARBARA,I AM SORRY.ITS SO VERY HARD TO GET THROUGH CHRISTMAS.I FEEL SO BAD I USED TO THINK HOW COULD PEOPLE BE CRANCKY AND SAD AT CHRISTMAS.NOW I LIVE THE REALITY OF NOT HAVING CHRIS HERE.AND I KNOW HOW THEY FEEL SADLY. WE ARE HERE FOR EACH OTHER.

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Barbara, I too am facing the first Christmas without my child. I have no idea how to get through it. I just wanted to let you know that I know, I know! I thought that I could be strong, but I cry every time I think about it. I will pray for strength for all of us. (((HUGS))) Lucy

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