I know what you are going through we have also lost our son and it is not easy. There is not a day that goes by that I don't talk to him or think of him. I foud that when I look up into the sky the shinest star is our Harry. he was 35 when he passed and it has only been a year and it is never gotten any easier. I keep saying I am learning to live with it but will never accept the fact that he is gone. If you need to talk I can be contacted at
memom50_4@hotmail.com you will be in our thoughts and prayers Helen