Now you might think I'm crazy but I wanted to tell you all something and ask you if anything like this happens to any of you.
My son B.J. had kidney trouble. And even though that is what he died from, his heart kept stopping on that aweful day (heart attacks) so the cause of his death was really listed as both his kidneys and his heart.
Every month since he died on Dec.1, 03 when that time of the month comes around my heart begins to hurt so bad. I'm not talking heartache kind of hurt, I'm talking physical pain kind of hurt.
I did go to the doctor way back when and she told me it was normal. Yes I had a physical but nothing was wrong. Of course back then it hurt non stop every day. Anyway my doctor told me she experianced the same thing for a long time after losing her 17 year old son just 1 1/2 years before we lost B.J. He and B.J. had gone to school together and were friends. Her son had a blood clot that hit his heart and he died. So the heart was involved on him like with B.J.
Someone else I know lost a daughter to pnuemonia and every year at that time my friend would get pnuemonia that would last about a month. This happened every year for 5 years. Strange? Yes, but real none the less.
Anyway, tomorrow will be 3 years and 9 months since B.J. died and once again I woke up today with my heart hurting soooo bad.
Why am I telling you this? For one, I want your prayers and also I want to know if any of you experience anyting like it that relates to how your child died. Thank you for listening, Cindy