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 Post subject: MY FIRST OF MANY HOLIDAYS WITHOUT PAIGE COURTNEY:(
PostPosted: Mon Jan 04, 2010 4:44 am 
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FIRST OFF I JUST WANNA SAY THAT THIS IS A HARD JOURNEY FOR ME. IT HAS ONLY BEEN 57 DAYS WITHOUT PAIGE, AND IT SEEMS LIKE AN ETERNITY!!!! THERE R TIMES WHEN I JUST SAY FORGET IT ALL, I JUST WANNA BE WITH HER. PAIGE WAS MY WORLD!!! 7 YEARS WAS SURELY NOT ENOUGH TIME 4 ME OR HER 2 LEAVE EACH OTHER. I AM NOW 22 WEEKS INTO MY PREGNANCY AND IT STILL DOES NOT HELP KNOWING THAT I WILL BE GIVING BIRTH 2 HER LITTLE SISTER SOON......I AM SUPPOSED 2 HAVE THE 2 OF THEM!!!! NOT TRADE 1 FOR THE OTHER!!!!! MY HUSBAND WILL BE DEPLOYING 2 IRAQ ON TUESDAY THE 5TH AND THAT IS EVEN MORE STRESSFUL!!!! I'VE ALREADY LOST MY ENTIRE UNIVERSE, AND NOW MY HUSBAND!!! HE HAS OBLIGATIONS 2 FIGHT FOR HIS COUNTRY!!! WHAT WILL I DO?? I JUST NEED PAIGE BACK 2 MAKE ME WHOLE AGAIN..DON'T GET ME WRONG I HAVE A GREAT HUSBAND, BUT NOTHING CAN TAKE THE PLACE OF UR ONLY CHILD!!!!! PAIGE AND I DID EVERYTHING TOGETHER. THAT IS WHY I CAN'T CONTINUE MY NORMAL ACTIVITIES BCUZ SHE CAN'T DO THEM WITH ME. WE WERE TRULY BEST FRIENDS!!!! I MISS HER SO MUCH. I OFTEN ASK WHY COULDN'T WE HAVE TRADED PLACES? THEN I SAY WHO WOULD BE HER BEST FRIEND IF GOD TOOK ME INSTEAD?? WHO WOULD DO ALL THE THINGS THAT MOMMY DID IF I LEFT 1ST?? IT'S SO HARD IMAGINING LEAVING YOUR CHILD IN A CRUEL WORLD THAT CARE FORGOT WITHOUT YOU PROTECTING THEM. I ALSO WONDER IF THE GUYS WHO PULLED THE TRIGGER THAT EARLY MORNING OF NOV. 8TH OFTEN THINK OF WHAT THEY DID AS MUCH AS I DO? HOW COULD U SHOOT AND NOT KNOW HOW TO. MY BABY WAS ASLEEP N BED WHEN THE BULLET CAME THROUGH THE BUILDING FROM THE OUTSIDE, AND THROUGH THE WALL AND HIT HER IN HER NECK. SHE WAS DREAMING OF BEAUTIFUL THINGS MORE THAN LIKELY BCUZ THAT IS WHAT PAIGE COURTNEY IS......BEAUTIFUL. SHE WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME IN AN ACT OF SENSELESS VIOLENCE. I WOULD NOT HAVE EVER THOUGHT SOMEONE WOULD DO THAT 2 US!!!! SPLIT US APART THAT WAY. WE WERE 2 CLOSE 2 ALLOW ANYONE IN TO DO THAT. U TRY AND PROTECT UR KIDS FROM EVERYTHING EXCEPT WHAT U LEAST EXPECT!!!!! THE THOUGHT OF LOSING PAIGE THAT WAY NEVER EVER CROSSED ME, SO HOW DO I TRY 2 PIECE WHAT IS LEFT OF MY LIFE BACK 2GETHER? I ATTEND COUNCELING TWICE A WEEK 2 HELP ME IN SOME WAY. I GUESS IT'S WORKING EVEN THOUGH ALL I DO IS YERN FOR PAIGE. TO SEE HER ONE OF A KIND SMILE AGAIN WOULD JUST MAKE ME MELT. TO KISS THOSE LIPS AGIAN I WOULD GIVE MY SOUL FOR A DAY! 2 HAVE HER WARM BODY NEXT 2 MINE ONCE MORE IS ALL I NEED 2 GET ME BY. THANKS FOR LISTENING..


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ALKIMA ANDERSON-WILLIAMSON AKA PAIGE'S MOMMY


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