I know some of what you feel. Your baby boy was gone before you gave birth, I just lost my baby girl to SIDS about a month and a half ago. She was 4 1/2 months old; we lost her this last Thanksgiving morning. It is the hardest thing in the world to lose a child, and I empathize with anyone who has felt the pain, no matter what the circumstances were. We will always love and miss our children...how do we go on? That is what I haven't figured out yet; maybe some day soon I will find peace; hopefully you have found your comfort and peace and may God be with you and yours now and forever.
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