On January 9th it will one year since my son passed away. He was just two months. I have lost everything after he has passed away. My hopes, dreams, all shattered. I cannot even sit for a moment to remember him cause it hurts soo badly. I'm struggling everyday...I can't sleep like a normal person anymore, stay awake thinking everything would change.I'm soo selfish and want the world to end so badly so I can hold him again. I wished God would give him back to me in some miraculous way...i read stories on this forum and it gives me strength that I'm not the only one and we will see our babies again..