I'm gonna take this one mom at a time cuz Joanns ordeal has me really feeling some not so happy feelings,,,
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I can not imagine the many intense and oh so angry emotions you must have experienced during that month of pure Hell , its totally amazing the way some 'officials' act or behave at times,, are these people (monsters) we 'elect' that pass laws totally heartless or just plain ignorant ? for them to make the "NORMAL" PAIN a parent trying to deal with the death of a child weather an infant or an adult so much more intense in the name of the law should be punishable by being tied to a long slow spit turning over a slow burning BBQ grill for the same amount of time you had to wait for them to release your daughters remains,,,
(((((((((((Joann))))))))))
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Barbara and Tammy,
make room at that gathering of pizza post toasties and dr pepper for Verna and her Chocoholic habit,,, breakfast, lunch ,supper, snacks if you was to look up the word chocoholic in a dictionary there would be Verna Mae Lewis for definition,,talk about the 'head games' we humans play on our selves,,, for 6 months after she passed I ate chocolate by the pound thinking Hersey would go bankrupt now,,,LOL..
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxTammy those thoughts and feelings of embracing death is so a part of my life now that
it seems like you were inside my head reading out loud,,
if you try to talk about this subject to family or friends do they act like your suicidal ?
and the more you try explain that your just waiting for the day you pass over to be where you can enjoy your child's company again not thinking of taking your life the more you get un needed advice or worse , empty words coming from a mouth that is attached to a clueless person?
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Jane _E,
I had never touched an embalmed remains before. And you described it perfect,, a cold ,,very cold piece of clay,, I refused to allow them to make Verna look like they make loved ones look like,, ( FYI,, $2500.00 for the make up and $1500.00 for the hair )
While fixing her hair and make up I thought I could 'commune' with Verna and try to get a grip on this totally not understanding the reason ,,, but you know what ? She was not there in that empty shell or vessel ,, it came as a small comfort that the remains I was 'decorating' was not my girl,, she had left ,, these remains were no longer needed,
they had been 'left behind what ever it is that makes a human a person was already gone onto the next step of her journey where ever that may be,, the small comfort came because I realized that I did'nt have to 'see' her to feel her or remember her
that made that act of burying her easier to handel,
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P.S. thanks for the candel ,,,
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