9 months today.......

Barbara · **Posted:** Mon Oct 29, 2007 7:46 pm

Today has been really rough for me.Its 9 mos today that Michael was killed.On Monday the 29.I felt like I was going to have a panic attack all day and it got worse around 3:49 pm. I've felt his presence around me all day.Maybe I'm going crazy but I went into Michaels room and sit on his bed and all of a sudden I felt this coldness on my face and arms.It was like he was hugging me.Thats the only way I can describe it.
I miss him so much,he was mommas boy and I have such a hole in my heart now that can never be filled.I can't wait till I'm with my boys again.

Love,
Barbara

Jo* · **Posted:** Mon Oct 29, 2007 9:13 pm

{{{Barbara}}},

I share your pain today. Some days the pain consumes our every waking thought, and our longing to see our child is overwhelming.

I believe your precious Michael was hugging you while you sat on his bed. He was letting you know he's ok, and he loves you very much.

Each of us have a piece of our heart in heaven. I wonder everyday how we manage to make it through another day on earth.

I'm holding you close to my heart dear Mom.

Love & {{hugs}},
Jo (Kevin's Mom forever and ever)

Barbara · **Posted:** Mon Oct 29, 2007 10:11 pm

Lisa,Tammy and Jo,
Thank you all so much for your kind words and prayers you all mean so much to me.
I would be completely lost with everyone of you here in our family.God bless you!!
Love, Barbara

Cindy · **Posted:** Mon Oct 29, 2007 11:35 pm

Barbara, I'm sorry I haven't been on much today. I'm just now seeing this. I'm sorry it's so hard. I'm sending you hugs and prayers. I'm glad Michael gave you a much needed hug, I wish he were still here.
I'm sorry I just don't have the words today. I've been to my cousins funeral and it left me wiped out. I will keep you in my prayers as always.
Love, Cindy

Patsy-VernsMom · **Posted:** Tue Oct 30, 2007 12:22 am

Barbara I am sending you hugs, the hurt and pain is so intense my heart truely goes out to you as to all our Angel mom's. Michael was there in his room giving you hugs he knows how you miss him, hold onto that hug and I pray it stays with you always and you feel his presence.

Love You
Patsy

JANE_E · **Posted:** Tue Oct 30, 2007 12:35 am

Oh Barbara,

I'm so sorry. The pain can be so intense some days, especially on an anniversary day.

Yes, of course your beloved son Michael was there for you today. He did hug you and you felt it, imagine how much he wanted to comfort you. Our God does provide for our loved ones to come to us in time of such need and sorrow.

I've started acknowledging my son when I feel his presence. I tell him. I've read that it's so difficult for them to match our energy field, their energy level vibrates so many times faster than ours, they have become pure energy now with a consciousness........so, in order to get through to us they have to find a way to either influence our environment or to slow down their own energy level.

But, sometimes they're simply "there" with us, just spending time in the place they knew as home and where their loved ones still live.

I just ordered about 17 new books on the subject and am so happy to find that research on life after death is being done in major colleges and medical schools around the world now. Churches are beginning to acknowledge life beyond passing......... and even the FBI now has a psychic team working with them (actually, they've had them since WWII). It's slowly, but surely, beginning to be an accepted field of research and treatment.

Mediums are finally being treated as gifted, rather than as witches. I believe they have been given a gift from God, much as some have the ability to paint, to compose music or poetry. This is becoming the true age of understanding and knowledge.

I wish we could have our meeting someplace like Lily Dale. We have enough people we could have our own medium to help us contact our children.

http://www.lilydaleassembly.com/

They do have pretty high qualification restrictions for all their mediums.

You can contact them privately for a reading. All of the well known ones have been there at one time or another.
http://www.lilydaleassembly.com/registered.php

I find so much comfort in knowing my son is here. It calms me and soothes my heart much more than the medications. I think that's why he comes so often now. I think he knew I was taking too much medication. I'm almost totally off it now. I only take one at night to help me sleep.

John Edward, Lisa Williams, and several of the mediums on Psychic Detectives have their own websites. That's how I found Lily Dale. It's a village in upper New York where qualified Mediums and psychics can offer their services and teach you how to reach your own beloved people who have passed.

I believe in it so much, I'd give anything to be able to contact my son at will.

I'm sorry Barbara, I got off the subject of your visit from your son, but it reminded me so much of the reading I've been doing lately.

I send love to you and prayers for more visits from your precious child.
Love,
jane

Barbara · **Posted:** Tue Oct 30, 2007 8:26 am

Cindy and Patsy,
Thank you so much.I seem to feel Michaels presence a lot lately.I'm sure your angels visit you more with the holidays coming,they are missed so much.
You are both in my prayers.
Love and hugs,
Barbara

Barbara · **Posted:** Tue Oct 30, 2007 8:31 am

Jane,
Thank you for your prayers and the info on mediums.I am very interseted in life beyond passing.You don't have to apoligize.You always seem to have the right words for us no matter what and I always look forward to reading your posts.May God Bless you!
Love,hugs and prayers,
Barbara

Lynda · **Posted:** Tue Oct 30, 2007 8:38 am

Dear Barbara,
No you are not going crazy...just crazy in love with your son! I can only believe our angels are with us and they try to do whatever it takes to let us know they are well. I know it is so difficult, because we aren't well, but we would rather our children be well more than ourselves. Please continue to share these feelings with us. It helps so much to talk about how we are feeling and to share our children with each other. (((HUGS)))
Hugs,
Lynda

Barbara · **Posted:** Tue Oct 30, 2007 9:09 am

Lynda,
Thank you.Talking about my feelings is starting to get easier.I've kept everything in for so long.Its starting to build up and sometiomes I just want to srceam at the top of my lungs.I'm so glad I found each and everyone of you.
Love,
Barbara

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