Sad, so sad. This is my first Christmas without Laura in this world. I am trying to hold it together for the rest of the family. I wear my mask. I smile and laugh, but inside my heart is breaking. I try to think of all the past Christmases with Laura and be thankful that I had her for so long. Those memories are bittersweet. She loved Christmas so much. After she no longer believed in Santa Claus, I recruited her to "help" by stuffing the stockings for everyone else. She felt so important. I knew she would keep the "secret" because she knew that if they no longer believed, they would get to "help" play Santa too. That worked for years for each of the kids as they grew up. After Laura grew up and had her own family she continued to keep "the magic" alive. Oh yes, we all knew the "reason for the season". We always celebrated it as Jesus' birthday. We knew that Santa represented the spirit of giving and that the exchange of gifts was representative of the gifts from the Magi. I remember that after the Christmas eve services every child would get a bad of goodies on their way out of church. How Laura loved that. These memories are so sweet. How can they be making me feel so sad. My heart aches for her children who are having their first Christmas without a mom. I pray for God to give me the strength to get through tomorrow. Thank you for listening.
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Lucy Carter
http://laura-dawn.last-memories.comIn loving memory of, Laura Dawn 2/26/68-7/19/07, my first born child, my daughter, my friend.
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In loving memory of, Myron H. (Ozzie) Osborne 8/22/22-3/29/89, My dad, my teacher, my hero.
Megan, Heather, Andrew,( Laura ), Mary, Jim, Russell