Jane wrote:
I lost my mother 5 months ago to a long battle against colo-rectal cancer. She was everything to me. We held a bond together that I will cherish my entire life. But this makes it all that much harder to bear. I miss her more with each passing day. I took her in to live with me and my family the last 2 years of her life. I find myself walking around daily paralized with grief, I can't seem to fully come to terms with the fact she is forever gone. The lose of my mother has changed me forever, I do not react to anything the same as I once did, my emotions are so jumbled up. People say it gets easier, I just can't believe that when for me each day becomes harder as the shock wears and reality hits with a painful blow.[/url]
My mother passed away earlier this year as well. The way you have described your feelings sounds exactly like what I am going through. I'm sorry for your loss.