Wow I'm so sorry about your situation. I know it is so hard and confusing believe me. Last night I couldn't stop thinking about Rob and missing him and hurting all over again, I found myself asking the same questions again, "what if" and i keep on wishing more than ever that i had him back and that i could go back in time at least for a little while. I found that whenever i miss him i just talk to him and it gives me a sense of comfort because no matter what he will always be watching over me. At least the thought gives me some sort of comfort and i reminisce on the good times we shared. Although i must say, I feel like our relationship was so perfect that i will never be loved and feel love like him again, but i just remind myself that what we had was special and one of a kind he was my first love and no other person can compare so i have to accept it and try although its hard to keep moving forward and continue this new life with my boyfriend now, remember every relationship is different and unique in it's own way, it's a whole new experience give it a try when u r ready. Good Luck jchrisp23.