[color=#800080]I truly know how you feel. I lost my aunt to pancreatic cancer on June 20, 2008. My aunt was the best aunt in the whole wide world! She was the most caring person I knew. She always believed in everyone, and was always giving them chances. Everyone she met loved her. She had over 350 people at her funeral! When my aunt was diagnosed, I was the first one she called to tell. She had 10 brothers and sisters but she called me, her niece! I was devastated. She was like a second mother to me and it broke my heart to hear the word CANCER. The doctors gave her no more than 6 months and in that time she relied on me to help her through it all. She told me everything in confidence and I helped to keep her mind and spirits strong. We became so close in the 5 and a half months that she survived, she fought to the end! She was a warrior! I am so honored that she chose me to tells her thoughts, fears, hopes and dreams to. Her death changed my life! I thank her everyday. For a few months after her death, she came to me in my dreams always asking me "how I was doing" or she would tell me "she was stopping by to say hi"...I like to believe she was checking in on me! It puts a smile on my face. I feel good to know I have a wonderful angel looking down on me. Yes, I have a hole in my heart, but I am grateful to have the memories of her in my head. Although it was a stressful time on my me and my health ( I ended up getting bells palsy which is usually brought on by stress), I WOULD NEVER CHANGE IT and I would do it all over again! My "special" time with my aunt in her darkest hours is priceless! She will be forever in my heart! Yes, I cry all the time but now I cry bittersweet tears, sometimes happy and sometimes sad, but mostly because I remember the times we got to share! Take a look at her site she is truly a beautiful angel.
Rest in peace Aunt Pauline Vidal
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