I miss my mom and dad so much. Lost my dad in january 2006 and mom, just in april of this year. My life is a mess and it seems I never stop crying. So many things remind me of them and make me miss them both so much. Sometimes I feel so alone and most times, I WANT to BE alone if that makes sense. I cannot walk into what was my mom's bedroom still, without breaking down in tears. I continue to be a good person and do all I can to make them proud. Even in their death, I want to make sure I am the person they know I would always be, good, kind, loving and caring, but it just seems so hard. . ....... Will the pain I feel ever stop? Will the tears ever stop? Will my heart always feel like it is breaking into a million pieces? Sigh....
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