More than 5 years ago my baby neice who was then 11 mo's old was murdered by her stepfather in a jealous rage I assume. We'll never really know why because he's never said and no one can bring her back with an excuse. I am now a victim advocate, thats what I did with all the pain and sarrow, I went to school and got a degree in a field that no one wants to have a desire to get a degree in.
You are a unique person with a very sad and tradgic story. Im terribly sorry that you lost your family this way, I cant begin to imagine your pain. I only ask that you keep in mind that you have reached out to others in your situation because well, you care. And although you may not know it now, your story will help comfort others to know that they are not alone. I only wish that you never had to be in a category such as this. As you seem to be someone who can go so much further in life doing things the "normal" way. But maybe now, and Im not sure, but I for one will never feel "normal" again. And maybe your like me. Just know that your thought about and today, well I prayed for you and your entire family for peace and justice.
Your so right when you say Murder is not a natural death! Its a horrible crime that effects so many more than the actual primary victim and for that reason I truly believe the justice system should put more years of consequences in their consideration. The person who took a life not only took a beautiful persons opportunities, their loved ones and their space on this earth but they also in a very serious way violate the love, trust and very nature of those who loved that special person.
Im terribly sorry for your pain, and if I can be a friend that you can talk to, I'd love to be. I found your post after creating a page for my good friend who was killed in a car accident just 2 days ago. I have so much pain and sadness that I dont know what to do with, and even an accident like a car wreck brings back that pain I felt the moment I was told about my neice. Its like a weight on my body, mind and spirit. I cant wait for it to lift a little. They say time heals but I've never healed from my neice's tradgic experience. Only learned to cope and move on the best way I can for myself, my sister, and the rest of the family.
May you find comfort in these posts and please dont hesitate to talk when you need to. Know that your voice is heard! And your sadness is shared.
Hugs!
Mrs Angelica Doser
Mustang, OK
adoser001@hotmail.com