For some reason today I have thought about the day my son died. over and over it is replayin in my head and im not sure why at all. I feel like I cant stop moving or thinking about ANYTHING or ill relive that day again and it hurts just as bad as it did that day. I can remember every detail and it bothers me becuase there are times i cant remember what i even ate in a day. but for some reason i can remember every aching moment of my son's death. why is it that something so painful is the thing you can remember most. I am so heart broken today and sometimes its so hard to see my step daughter because she is not mine and her and my son shared the same daddy and i see alot of him in her...does that make me a terrible person?. I just want my son back I want to hold him and keep him safe like i should have been able to..i feel robbed and i just want the pain to go away..even just for a day so maybe ill feel some peace..can anyone relate to how im feeling? because I can really use some insight..