I went to walmart yesterday evening,I had to get Jake some medicine,as i walked in i ran into Chris,s good friend.he hugged me and looked at me with that sad look. it upset me but i went in to walmart,right as i walked in there was Thanksgiving stuff everywhere .it was so overwhelming.i got my self together and said i can do this.i got my list out and tried to just look at it.on my list was Chritmas flowers for Chris,s resting place.i pushed through all the happy festive people shopping and buying holiday stuff.as i got to the flowers i stopped and was picking some out,till i realized this is for my beautiful,loved son i cared for with joy and now here i stand buying flowers for his resting spot.I cried and had to go to a isle with no one there.last year i couldnt go in the stores.it didnt dawn on me how much it hurts to go in stores this time of year. .my husband and i get to the register and the young girl asked if were are ready foy Thanksgiving.i looked at her and it just came out.i said no and will never be.i dont have chris here.i couldnt just smile and say yes.i told her what happened to chris.she said .i know my brother got hit too ,but hes still here.i just looked at her .Chris didnt make it i dont want to go on ,it hurts to much.today is really making me sad.im sorry i had to vent .its killing me know chris cant be here

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{{{Carla}}},

The title of your post says it all for me.....How do I "get through" the holidays. It seems like that's what we have to do "get through"....for me there's no "looking forward" to the holidays....it's as you said "getting through".

Like you, I also can have a breakdown in Wal-Mart or the grocery store whenever I go...there's no advance warning...usually it's something that just happens. Right now I am unable to go into Walgreens....every year I'd buy Kevin and Jeff Xmas boxers from Walgreens. I always liked those because they come with the matching gift bag...I can't even look at them now without breaking down. It's the smallest of things that brings on overwhelming sadness.

I'm trying to keep the thought in my head that Kevin spends Christmas with Jesus...enjoying eternal life.....and I hope to one day join him. Until that time I know I'm a mere human, who yearns to once again see my son on earth and enjoy one of his special Kevie {{{hugs}}}.

We'll all get through this together Carla....we'll lean on each other, and help each other.

You and Chris and your family are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love & {{Hugs}},
Jo (Kevin's mom forever and ever)

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My strategy for getting through the holidays is avoid shopping. I want to Wal-Mart the other day and did survive without breaking down, but tried to stay focused on what I was supposed to pick up there. I also was using one of those electric shopping cart scooters and had to concentrate on learning how to not run over anyone or anything.
As far as shopping for presents and all that, I am giving money or shopping from QVC. No tree this year. I just can't.

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