I wish I could give you some advise. I have none. Laura is so recently gone that so far no one has expected me to "get over it". However, I know that I never ever will get over it. I hope that someday I can find contentment with my family and with my friends. I, unfortunately, have 3 close friends who have also lost children. They understand how I feel and don't expect me to get over the loss. I do understand why your friends don't ask anymore. Because, as you said, they figure you won't go anyway. Perhaps, although it will be hard, you could reach out to the one you were closest to and arrange to meet for just a short lunch or even just a cup of coffee. Let her know how you feel. What have you got to lose? Just take it one step at a time. But, you know they will never completely understand unless or until the unspeakable happens to them too. I will keep you in my prayers. Always your friend, Cece (Lucy)
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Lucy Carter
http://laura-dawn.last-memories.comIn loving memory of, Laura Dawn 2/26/68-7/19/07, my first born child, my daughter, my friend.
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In loving memory of, Myron H. (Ozzie) Osborne 8/22/22-3/29/89, My dad, my teacher, my hero.
Megan, Heather, Andrew,( Laura ), Mary, Jim, Russell