I know what you mean. My husband has been gone 1 year on the 3rd of Nov. He died of non small cell lung cancer that had gone to every bone in his body. We found out Sept. 9th 2008 that he had cancer on the 19th of sept. they told us 1 to 2 months. He died on Nov. 3 2008. In the last week I have felt every emotion there is to feel. I miss him more than I could think possible to miss someone. He was my best friend. Please feel free to visit his website George W. Atwood. I have pictures and such on there. They say time heals all wounds. I am still waiting.