Please pray for Sinjin (updated again)

Cindy · **Posted:** Sat Sep 08, 2007 11:20 pm

Please pray for Sinjin, he isn't doing well at all. You can check on him here. http://www.caringbridge.org/cb/viewJour ... xecuteInit

I don't know why the link isn't working, it works for me. I've brought the updates here. Please pray for him.

SATURDAY, SEPTEMBER 08, 2007 07:34 PM, CDT
Just a quick update...I spent time at the hospital today, and Sinjin is really out of it. My mother would like you to know that Sinjin is fighting for his life. This is the scaredest she has ever been since the beginning of this all...Sinjin has very low blood pressure, no immune system, and is at a very high risk for pneumonia. Please continue to pray...

Live Strong Shannon

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SATURDAY, SEPTEMBER 08, 2007 01:09 AM, CDT
This is Shannon with an update. Sinjin has been admitted into the hospital again...my mom took him to the hospital early yesterday morning I think around 2 am. Sinjin was then admitted, and not doing well...At around 11 he started vomitting blood, and it was ALOT..he lost alot of blood so they moved him into PICU around 4pm. His body was in shock, and he was very pale, they had to give him blood and platlets and lots of fluids. When I got there around 5:30, he was white as a ghost and not doing well at all. He is pumped up on morphine and in alot of pain. so he is in and out of it...right now they are trying to stabilize him, and may have to do another surgery. We should know more about that soon. I just got home, it is 1 am, and wanted everyone to know what is going on for now, I am not sure when my mom will be able to update, or how long Sinjin's stay to the hospital will be this time around, but I will do my best to keep you updated...please continue to send your prayers our way...Thank you for all the love and support...

Lynda · **Posted:** Sat Sep 08, 2007 11:30 pm

Dear Cindy,
I couldn't get the link to pull up on my pc. I will go and try to pull up his updates.
(((Keeping Sinjin in my prayers))) Thank you Cindy.
Hugs,
Lynda

Lynda · **Posted:** Sun Sep 09, 2007 12:31 am

Dear Cindy,
I just read the update...and my heart is broken yet again for this family. This is so so so sad!!!!! When does it stop???? I will keep Sinjin in my prayers that he will receive the strength of God to keep fighting for his life. Holding the family in my prayers too, they have been through so much. Thank you for updating us Cindy!
Hugs,
Lynda

Cindy · **Posted:** Sun Sep 09, 2007 1:26 am

Hi Lynda,
While you're at it will you please pray for my little girl Sarah too? She is Sinjin's age and for the last several months she has been visiting his guestbook and his myspace and has the last few weeks been talking to him on the phone often. She is so worried about him. It just breaks my heart to see her cry for her friend and not be able to do anything about it. I try to keep her faith strong but she is like me and knows that the Lord says no sometimes. Thank you for everything.
Love, Cindy

Lynda · **Posted:** Sun Sep 09, 2007 10:31 am

Dear Cindy,
I most certainly will. Please tell Sarah thank you so much for reaching out to Sinjin. Also, will you please tell Kayla thank you so much for Garion's candle. Your children are a reflection of you, so full of love for everyone. I know BJ, Wayne, and Buck are so proud of their family.
(((HUGS SARAH))) Keeping you in my prayers and praying for God to give you the words to share with Sinjin.
Hugs,
Lynda

Cindy · **Posted:** Sun Sep 09, 2007 3:26 pm

I'm posting the lastest update on Sinjin. I'm also putting his caringbridge site here. I hope this one works.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/sinjinandrukates

SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 09, 2007 01:31 PM, CDT

My mother is now sitting with Sinjin so I can give you a update. Last night the lower half of both Sinjin's lungs collasped so he is now on a breathing maching. He has a tube running through his nose down to his stomach that would normaly be used as a feeding tube they are instead using it to as suction to remove every sip of water, blood, bile, salivia and any kind fluid from his stomach. They are pushing fluids at a high rate as well as what they call the big guns in antibiotics, 4 different kinds. Sinjin has Zero white blood cells he has No defense whatsoever. He broke my heart yesterday when he whispered to me " mama I do not think I am going to leave the hospital this time" tears were running down my face as I told him he would be going home again and to not say that, to stay strong and fight for his life. He reached up brushed the tears from my face and said "mama please don't cry". He had no color at all his lips were gray with no color as well as his entire body. He would only open his eyes every so often and give a small sweet smile and mouth the words I Love You. They could not even get a blood pressure on him it was down to nothing. All all could keep saying was God please don't take my baby boy he is my heart... please God help him. He has a little color in his cheeks today which made me happy until I found out it was due to a fever of 103. His entire body is swollen twice it's normal size. The pain in his stomach is being kept under control with morphine. They told us his colon is huge at this time and inflammed they are calling it colonitis. They are working hard and trying to stablelize him. He has had had to be given blood 5 times and also platletes. They still do not know where the blood is coming from. He is having x rays 3 times a day he has had a CT scan. He has not used the restroom since tuesday nor has he eaten. This is the most afraid I have ever been. I slept in a chair last night next to his bed and he held my hand all night. Please pray Sinjin will pull through this and be able to continue moving forward on his chemo. He needs a break here he has been so very strong and positive. I feel he is wanting to give up and it is breaking my heart. I want to thank you all for your prayers please keep praying and send positive thoughts Sinjin's way. Oma thanks for the prayer we love you. Suzie thank you for the flowers. Sarah Beth as always you bring sunshine and joy to Sinjin's world you are indeed a blessing in his life. To all of you that I have not mentioned by name. You have supported us since the very start and we know you will be with us and your support will carry us on through.

Livingstrong with Courage, Faith & Hope

Sinjin's mom

Cece · **Posted:** Sun Sep 09, 2007 3:53 pm

Cindy, Thank you for the update and the link. My thoughts and prayers are with
Sinjin and the family.
Cece

Cindy · **Posted:** Mon Sep 10, 2007 1:55 am

I felt like the Lord told me to print off the last update on Sinjin tonight and take it to Church this evening and have it anointed and prayed over. We had such a powerful move of God. They also anointed a prayer clothe for him so we decided we needed to take it to him. His Mom was so surprised to see us but so glad too. We got to see Sinjin, we weren't sure we would be able too since he was in intensive care and it was after visiting hours by the time we got there. He responded to us though I'm not sure he will remember us being there. My heart just breaks for that little guy and oh...it brought back memories of B.J. in the hospital that last time. But the Lord was good and gave us the peace we needed to do what we felt He wanted us to do. I am believing with all I have in me that the Lord is going to heal that little guy. I have to believe...The Lord has been faithful to my family so many times in the past, I'm believing He will again. All I know is He is more than able to raise that young man up and bless him with perfect health and unless he just flat says no I'm going to believe He is going to. Thank you to all of you for keeping him in your prayers.
Love, Cindy

JANE_E · **Posted:** Mon Sep 10, 2007 12:56 pm

I read with such sorrow the updates on Sinjin. My problems seem so smalll when I read that......... such a beautiful young child.

If prayers can help Sinjin, then he will get better. I'm sending prayers on his behalf several times a day. Reading the updates on how terribly ill he is just breaks my heart. That brave young boy, trying to fight this vicious disease, yet trying to be brave and show love for his family. How strong his spirit is.

I'm praying for him to recover, but if that's not God's will, I pray that he will bless him with peace and free him from the pain, and that he will be with Sinjin's blessed mother who is suffering so very much.

Our beloved little Sinjin has fought so hard and for so long now. His little body is getting weary. At this point, I just pray for some relief for him....... in God's name.

This is so very hard for everyone. It reopens our own grief and mixes it with the grief for Sinjin...........

May God Bless him and be with him always.

jane

Cindy · **Posted:** Mon Sep 10, 2007 5:55 pm

I'm just adding the latest update on Sinjin. As you will see there is the tiniest bit of improvement in his white blood count. It was a 0 and now it is a 2. Hey, a 2 is not a 0 any way you look at it! I have learned to be thankful in the little things because "Little" is "Much" when God is in it! Right? Right!
Keep praying, Cindy

MONDAY, SEPTEMBER 10, 2007 09:48 AM

John is with Sinjin and we just got done talking to the doctor. He said that it was his last round of chemo that put him in the condition he is in at this time. He said that Sinjin's white blood count is at 2 and he is hoping over the next several days that it will continue to rise. He said he does not want to give us false hope but that they all are amazed that Sinjin is not on total life support. He said Sinjin is a fighter and that at this time he is holding on not getting better yet not getting worse and at this time this is the best we can hope for for him to stay the same till his white counts come up.His Aunt Kay Kay came the night before last to see him as did my co worker Lela Taylor and her husband. His Nana and Grampy came last night and stayed for a while and while they were here I went to the parking lot and had one of my many emotional breakdowns. The nurse came into Sinjin's room last night around 9 pm or so and said there was a family here to see Sinjin and I and that their last name was Outlander. I told her there must be a mistake because I did not know that last name and she said oh yes they are here to see Sinjin. I walked out into the waiting room and the 1st face I saw was the face of sweet little Sarah Beth Outlaw. The nurse had misunderstood the last name. She and her family had read my last post and decided they would bring her to see him.Sinjin has only talked with Sarah on the phone and on line and I have been in touch with her mom in the same way. I met Cindy through the Memory -of.com site on line. It started when I was posting updates and prayer request for Lil Trevor Kott and then when we were told he has Cancer I posted there again to ask for prayer for Sinjin since that time many amazing people who have lost a loved ones and have a site on Memory-of.com have come to Sinjin's CaringBridge site to offer prayer and support. The Outlaws prayed for Sinjin and I sat with them in the waiting room while Sarah stayed with Sinjin. She is a light in Sinjin's life and he adores her. I would like to thank the Outlaws for coming last night they are wonderful people. I would also like to thank my supervisor Mrs. Toni and all my co worker's for their continued support they have all been so wonderful. Mrs Toni, Mrs Jean, Mrs Lela, Greg, Daniella, & Cindy you are all the best! I must go now Sinjin's aunt Kay Kay is here and Sinjin is asking for me. Please keep praying for his white blood counts to come up.

Livingstrong with courage, faith and hope

Sinjin's mom

The song keeps coming to my mind Jesus take the wheel...

Lynda · **Posted:** Mon Sep 10, 2007 10:32 pm

Dear Cindy,
I am sitting here crying. Reading about this precious boy and his family, their ups and downs, God is definitely in this! You and your family have reached out in ways most people couldn't. Cindy, you are truly one person I do respect with all of my heart. Thank you so much for letting us know how Sinjin is doing. Please give my thanks and many hugs to Sarah for me for being who she is.
Hugs,
Lynda

Cindy · **Posted:** Tue Sep 11, 2007 2:06 pm

The latest update on Sinjin. Please keep the prayers going for him. Well that was a dumb thing to say...I know you will keep the prayers going.
Love you all, Cindy

TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 11, 2007 11:38 AM
I only have a moment. Sinjin is still holding on. Thank you all for your continued prayers we need all the prayers we can get. He has been awake just a little more than before but is in pain when he is awake. They had to take him off of morphine because it was causing rashes all over his body. They are going to put him on a different pain med. I must go the nurse told me there is a pastor is here and he wants to talk to me.

I will try to update later today

Livingstrong with courage, faith and hope

sinjin's mom

Cindy · **Posted:** Wed Sep 12, 2007 1:29 pm

We've got some good news and some not so good news. I'm thankful for the good and still praying for the bad.~Cindy

WEDNESDAY, SEPTEMBER 12, 2007 10:53 AM
As always I only have a few moments. John and I had Aarons mom stay with Sinjin while we went over to the Ronald McDonald house here in Temple and got John a room it is 10.00 a night. It is a beautiful place. John works all night long and then comes back to the hospital and trys to sleep and with the nurses and doctors coming in and out all night he only had about 2 hours sleep and then went to work. He drives a gas truck and last night was so tired that he had to pull over and tried to sleep for an hour. I spoke with the nurse this morning and she said get him a room at the Ronald McDonald house so he can sleep and you need sleep to. I told her we have been doing this since May and she felt bad that we did not know we could go there. I said to her that I am kinda getting used to it running on empty sleeping just a few hours a night then getting up to get dressed to drive to work during the week and then coming straight back to the hospital. I will not leave Sinjin here alone ever. And I will not leave him in ICU to go to work he is fighting for his life and still has infection. I want to let you all know we have great hope for Sinjin he is waking up a little more and was awake for awhile yesterday and they sat him in a recliner chair but he slept the entire time. He runs fever and we are fighting fever daily. He used the restroom they brought a bedside portable potty to the bed. His white blood counts I gave to you all yesterday was a another Miscommunication I am so sick of that word here they refuse to use the word mistake. I told you all his white blood cell counts were at 2 but they were not even though I was told by the nurse they were the doctor came in and I was excited about the great increase he used the word I hate and then told me Sinjin was only at 0.2 which is only 200 not the 2000 I had thought. I was near tears. Last night his tube had got stuck between the bed rail cut off what they were supposed to be sucking out so all that bile and fluids were on his stomach all night this morning he woke up throwing up and was in alot of pain. I fell asleep last night and if I had been awake it would not have happened. This morning I was angry and told them this is your job to watch that and make sure it is working and now you see why I never sleep and the 1st night I do fall asleep this is what happens. I thought it would be okay to sllep because yestday I had looked at it and it was full and running over so I got the nurse in there and told her you all need to start keeping a better eye on this Please! I then thought we would not have anymore problems them watching it. I was wrong.... So now I will not sleep unless John is here awake with him. The Last round of Chemo thinned out the walls of his stomach so if it it not constantly taking everything out it seeps back out it into his body and that is BAD. He woke up this morning and said mama can you sit next to me. I sat next to him and he held my hand and gave me that lil smile and told me that I looked tired. Good NEWS his white blood count is now at 5000. With that they start fighting the infection. Have to go they are kicking me out ... more later and I will explain what will happen next

Livingstrong Sinjin's mom

Cindy · **Posted:** Fri Sep 14, 2007 2:34 pm

Hi, I just wanted to post the latest on Sinjin. Thank you for all your prayers, Cindy

THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 13, 2007 05:43 PM
It seems when you have as many doctors as Sinjin does they seem to have a hard time agreeing on his care and how things should go. One says Sinjin can have small sips of water and the other says NO water one says he can take off the breathing mask every two hours for about 30 minutes the other says if you need it Sinjin put it on you don't have to be a hero one says we will maybe be out of ICU by next tuesday the other says more like in 2 weeks. My head is spinning!!!!! I let them know that they need to get together and agree upon something, anything.. and they let me know that one thing that they do agree upon is that Sinjin is one TOUGH kid. Talked to Dr Davis his cancer doctor today and he said that Sinjin's wbc is at 9,000 and he wants us to be ready that this may be the calm before the storm. They want to do a CT scan either tomorrow or Monday and see how his gut as he calls it and his colon is doing. I pray for NO Storm and that Sinjin just keeps on beating all the odds. Today he was more awake and alert than he has been since we 1st got here. He sat in the recliner for a few hours and watched a little TV. I am amazed by him more and more and more as each day passes. The other night I attended a support group meeting for parents of cancer kids at the Ronald Mc Donald house, still no quite sure of how I feel about that. I didn't want to leave Sinjin to go there but John and Aaron's mom insisted I go and John stayed with Sinjin and then Nana and Grampy and Sinjin's father came to see him so John ran and got himself a bite to eat. The meeting well.... I will have to go at least once more before I decided weather or not I will attend again... we will see. So the doc say's he is not going to give Sinjin the Cytarabine chemo drug again exactly like he did the last round... see Sinjin was supposed to repeat the exact same again this next round coming up and the doc said we see where the last round got him so we are NOT going to do that. He says he has a game plan so we will see how it is gonna go when Sinjin recovers from this. Hey Suz my sis I Love You it is awesome what you are getting ready to try to do for Sinjin and if it comes to pass I will share with everyone here. Oma, everything is going to be okay I promise I am going to soon be taking care of things on my end so do not worry yourself, we love you. To my supervisor... Speaking of crazy uh Mrs. Toni I went a little nuts in ICU last night and lit up like 4 people. Sinjin could not breath last night so I tried to get him help and there was nobody available to be found so I started the machine myself and dragged it over to him and hooked him up myself but... there was hell to pay for all of them because I even had to do that.!! I am Not the nurse they are and I am so tired of all the bull crap. So they got busy well duh!!! Call in another nurse to work the floor for goodness sakes and let me be what I am supposed to be a Mom that loves her child and is there for him for emotional support not to be his NURSE!!!. So all of you at work take up a collection just in case to bail me outta jail cause if it keeps on it could get ugly up in here!!! lol Here at the hospital they call Aaron's mom and I ... Double Trouble we just call ourselves... Thelma & Louise and you better believe we ain't play'in.

Livingstrong with courage Sinjin's mom

Barbara · **Posted:** Fri Sep 14, 2007 7:12 pm

Cindy,
I will be keeping Sinjin and family in my prayers.
Love Barbara

Please pray for Sinjin (updated again)

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